Age Play….What’s It Really All About?

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This article was previously posted on Governingana’s FIKA In February, but I thought I would repost here for my readers that may have missed it. Enjoy!

Luvs, Bree

When people hear the term age play, more often than not, the first image that comes to mind is either a a mentally regressed, oversized adult sitting in diapers or, sadly, pedophilia. It has absolutely NOTHING to do with either real life children or the mentally challenged. I cannot emphasize that enough. These perceptions have developed due to both ignorance and prejudice, and I truly hope to dispel any misconceptions that many people may adhere to.

First, allow me to preface by stating that, among consensual adults, there is no right or wrong. What may be great for one couple, may be completely abhorrent to another, but that is where we must allow ourselves to view this genre with an open mind and acceptance.  AP allows expression to all ages, genders, body types and education levels. No couple is alike.  Like child rearing, AP had multiple ways to address, explore and practice… and it is dependent upon the individuals involved. I also wish to invite anyone with questions, comments or reflections to feel free to contact me at any time. Together, we can open the doors for more people within the D&S community to explore their fantasies and desires without fear, shame or ignorance.

As most of my readers know, I have been actively involved in DS for many years, and that I am happily married and engaged in a full time DS relationship with my husband, John. We do not practice AP on a 24/7 basis, rather it is a special time that we set aside for ourselves at least a couple of times a week…. depending on my work schedule. We have found that entering this mode on particularly stressful times helps my focus, mood and behavior.

That brings up the first question… must AP be a permanent  arrangement? No.  Just like DS, the couples or families decide what works best for them.  Many people enjoy attending spanking parties and play times… but do not practice the lifestyle within the home.  Others, myself included, are continuously involved in the relationship. Again, it is dependent upon the couple and their own personal needs.  I will say this much though… I bow to those couples who commit to the 24/7 AP… especially the Big/adult.  It is an awful lot of work!

Ahhh, we progress to the second question… what are the roles? Obviously, we have the adult.. also called the Big.  He or she may take on the responsibility of daddy/mommy, uncle/aunt, guardian, teacher, etc…. any adult role of authority. There are many ‘families’ that extend into the play as well, and some communities even engage. Again, we cannot and do not judge… as all of us have different needs and desires.  It is no more (if I might use the term set by a negative reviewer) creepy than those people involved in large biological families or live in communes.

Littles, or adult children, are those who submit themselves into the authority of the Bigs. The ages are determined by the needs of the couple, and the consent and time constraints.  For example, anyone who has has a baby knows that constant supervision is needed, and that all of the infants needs are fully dependent upon the adult.  There are no expectations placed other than to nurture.  This is a full time job for the Big, including caring for the Littles every need, entertaining and supervising.  For the Little, all privileges are suspended, including being able to care for their own bodily functions.  It is absolute release of control… In every aspect…

I’m a control freak, so needless to say, I would have a real hard time there!

When we AP, I tend to take on the age of about six.  Old enough to care for my basic needs, yet free from any responsibilities except what Daddy asks of me. Reasonably, I am not learning to read, but I do color and play with age appropriate toys.  It is enough regression to allow me the freedom to release my stress of my job and the responsibilities that are associated with it, plus allows John to tend to me in the way he feels is most beneficial.  Just remember, the older the Little, the different the Big’s demands.

I’m seeing now that I should really expand this article into a book…. lol!

Sex. Ahh, the most uncomfortable subject when it comes to AP. NO! The Big is NOT fantasizing about having sex with a child! No, no, no…. AP, or regression, simply allows the Little to go back to an easier time and relinquish themselves to an authority.  Rarely, and I’m not saying all, do couple engage in sexual activity in the AP role.  The Little is promoted to big girl/big boy status and reenters their adult state for adult activities.  John had a real issue for a while, switching back and forth between Daddy and husband… we had to physically disengage from AP for at least an hour for him, and me, to resume our regular, adult place.  Other couples can slide right into the change.  Again, it’s personal preference.

I’ve already addressed why some people would explore this side of D&S, but what of other reasons beyond stress relief? It can be very therapeutic if handled correctly, but also as easily destructive.  Because of the vulnerability the Little has to allow, clear boundaries need to be set in the beginning and, in the beginning (particularly if there is a chance of striking some emotionally sensitive areas, i.e. an abusive childhood issue), I do suggest the use of either a safe word or what we call, an alert.  These can been disposed of once the relationship is fully established with the degree of trust required.  Bigs… don’t disregard your Littles if there is a history of abuse or neglect.  They are depending on you to help them heal and give them the love and acceptance required to move forward.  LIttles… this can be a scary time for you… you need to be able to trust your Big to take care of you.  Communication is everything!

Discipline. Alright, i would venture to say that the majority of us are into, and practice, the discipline of spanking.  Again, the schools of thought regarding the discipline of real children are different… but we are not dealing with children here.  We are dealing with consensual adults who are involved, or are exploring, this lifestyle.  The big difference here is that the discipline will be more severe than if delivered to a child.  For example, if the Little is required to stand in the corner… he/she might be there for an hour while a child might be for ten minutes.  An adult can be spanked severely, with different implements, bare-bottomed…. amongst other methods.  John says that the only difference between Little Discipline and Sub discipline is the degree of humiliation, severity and restraint.  While as Little Bree, I might earn myself a switching to my bare bottom. I remain fully clothed and usually OTK, and am allowed to kick and squirm.  As the adult Breanna, I might receive the same switching naked, tied over a bench and plugged.  See the difference? And yes, I DO avoid switchings! Oh, FYI, Nikki does not receive the same type of ‘adult’ discipline I do…just in case you were wondering. SHE gets to get her clothes on, and never undergoes any type of anal discipline.

Community involvement.  In the Game Plan, Lost and Found, and Guardian Domination, I included familial involvement in the AP/training.  For me, having multiple disciplinarians works to keep me on my toes, however, I am monogamous in my ‘adult’ relationship. Other people prefer to keep their AP private.  Again, the amount of outside involvement is dependent on the needs of those involved, and is neither right nor wrong,  ‘creepy’, ‘gross’, or ‘weird’.  I find it interesting how some people will attend spanking parties where they, or their partners, are spanked by strangers, but then are uncomfortable with the idea of having a D&S family.  Remember, my friends, we are in a very small community and need to support one another as best as possible.  It’s hard enough that the vanilla world doesn’t understand/accept us… we don’t need the same from each other, right?

So… how does one start? By honestly communicating our needs, which begins by an open, clear view of ourself.  If we fear our dark or hidden desires, then we cheat ourselves of discovery.  Like I tell my ‘plankton’ (I’m the Jumbo Shrimp/alpha sub and my peeps are those who train under me), we can’t achieve our goals until we accept our needs.

In finale, I will share with you a typical day of age-play for me. Let’s assume I’ve had a tough week, and come home grumpy…..

John (Daddy) greets me at the door.  Before I can say anything, he already knows what I need.  He’s heard it in my voice when I called him to tell him I was on my way home.  He’s prepared, also knowing I’m a bit cranky and might need some persuasion.  Yes, he knows me well.  He takes my bags from me and, after a kiss on the cheek, leads me into the bathroom where he has my big tub filled sky high with bubbles! I love bubbles… they immediately put me into a regressed frame of mind.  He undresses me and helps me into the tub.  After handing me my soap crayons (I like to draw naughty pictures on the wall), he leaves to get me a mug of hot cocoa. Not coffee…. little girls don’t drink coffee.

When he returns, he washes my hair.  Slowly and calmly, massaging away the stress from my night.  He then scrubs my body with my pink sponge thingy, using berry scented soap.  The scent puts me into the childlike mode, compared to my regular vanilla and sandalwood mix.   He lets me play in the bubbles for a while longer and sits with me, asking question about my goals for my day off.  I notice he wasn’t talking about that day… that was already planned. I was going to be Little and expected to simply mind him.  I also knew that, in my present mood, it would be a chore.

I have to admit, the warm bath, hair washing and hot cocoa, combined with working the entire night, left me exhausted.  Daddy sees me yawn and announces it’s time to get out of the tub.  It’s cold in the room and I don’t want to leave the warm, soothing bubbles. A frown and one finger held in the air is enough to make me obey. I’m too tired and too cranky to invite a spanking this early in the game!!

I can’t help but giggle as he holds out my bunny onsies! Oh yeah, not joking here.  Pink with a bunny tail of the open flap, and little bunny faces on the feet. He found these silly things at Target! I let him dress me and then settle between his knees for him to comb out and blow dry my hair. It’s really long and Daddy isn’t that good at braiding, but I don’t care. I’m falling asleep on his shoulder.  I barely remember him tucking me into bed, and stuffing Squishy (my killer whale pillow pet) under my arm.  He also leaves me a water bottle with one of those sippy tops on it in case I get thirsty.  The last thing I remember is him rubbing my back and my bottom before I drift off the sleep.

Because its my day off, he only allows me to sleep about four hours and then wakes me… usually with a kiss and then some tickling.  I’m not ready to get up and am a bit grumpy.  He pulls me out of bed and drags me into the bathroom to go potty and brush my teeth, promising a whole plethora of fun things to do if I behave myself.  I don’t care, i am sleepy and wanna to back to bed. It’s time for breakfast and, I have to admit, I’m feeling a bit more awake after I eat… as long as he doesn’t force me to eat oatmeal. I hate oatmeal. Oh good! Booberry Pancakes!

I’m usually allowed to watch cartoons. or Disney, while eating my breakfast. As long as I finish it, that is.  After I’m done, i have to put my plate in the sink and then get dressed. I don’t wanna. I like being in my jamies.  Thats when things start to turn bad for me… I’m allowed one warning before I find myself over his lap and being spanked.  Daddy will drop the flap of my onsies and let loose with his hand on my bare bottom.  I never take it quietly… heck no, I shriek, yell, kick, twist… anything to make it stop. It’s still too early for me and I am not in the mood.  Daddy stops spanking me when I agree to cooperate, and that my words sound convincing.  He knows me too well.

After I pout a little, I get dressed in whatever he has laid out for me.  Since it’s cold out, I have my pink sweats and Tinkerbell sweatsuit that he bought for me at Disney.  He lets me wear my fuzzy angry bird slippers and then sits me at the table to color while he changes the strings on his guitar (he’s a professional musician).  If I stay quiet, he joins me and we spend some time coloring together.  He’s really competitive too! It always makes me giggle to see him enjoying the coloring as much as I do (by the way folks, we are designing an adult coloring book based on D&S themes… so watch my blog for the coloring contest!)

The day continues… we play games, watch TV, go exploring outside if it’s nice, play ball with the dogs and the goose…..maybe even have a picnic if it’s warm enough.  I’m not allowed to wander off… his constant supervision is required when we are outside.  He worries about snakes biting or aliens capturing me in their spaceships.  If my mood improves, I do grab this time to be a brat.  Daddy does NOT like earthworms in his hair, but I think it’s funny.

If my sister is around, she will join us and play barbies with me, or color.  Daddy has to supervise our game playing though, because she hates to lose, and I am a terrible cheater.  That never fares well for either of us.  Even though I’m older, she naturally regresses as the younger sibling and acts up more than usual. Yeah, it typically ends up with her getting spanked by Daddy while I laugh at her.

By bed time, I’m exhausted, but at peace.  I had a whole day of being free from responsibility and chaos, was lovingly cared for and directed, and only had to worry about following Daddy’s rule. Which, I hate to admit, but even in my adult state, I don’t do as I should!

Hey, I never said I was the world’s best sub, but I am John’s favorite little girl!

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Interview With Sir John

 

 

A while ago Bree posted that she was going to interview John for the blog. Readers sent in questions, and here they are. I (Nikki) am conducting this interview because Bree is sleeping-she worked last night. Hope you enjoy!

First I am supposed to tell you that I was 2 minutes late for our meeting and I did not start the interview the way a proper sub would. So I earned a hand and brush punishment and book entry.

Nikki: Sir, I am sorry for not starting our interview on time and properly. Please forgive me and thank you for taking the time to answer our questions. (this was of course said in position).

Sir John: You will be spanked later.

Nikki: Yes sir.

Sir John: Go on.

Nikki: Yes sir.

Reader: How did you become or learn or train to be a Dom?

Sir John: I was about 14 and had a bratty girlfriend. I had seen and read some about spanking, so I decided I would try it.  It was over her clothing but I got such a favorable reaction I started to think this is the way relationships should be formed.

Nikki: Did you train yourself sir, or just learn as you went along?

Sir John: Well I had no idea what a top or a bottom was. I did read a lot but in the early stages, I just used corporal punishment (cp) when a girlfriend was acting up. It was awhile before I actually got into the dynamic of a true Dom. Quite a while.

Reader: Do you mentor other Dom or subs?

Sir John: I have had many subs over the years both online, and in person. Not many Doms. I have given advice from time to time.

Reader: Do you have other subs? (you should start a school on how to properly motivate subs I think this could be very useful).

Sir John: Well you could be right and if the opportunity came up I would consider it. However, you and Bree keep me pretty busy.  lol I do mentor some online though.

Nikki: lol

Reader: What made you think Bree or Nikki were subs when you met them?

Sir John: Very good question. I think other Doms will support me on this; after a while, you just know. It’s almost a sixth sense about these things. I think Bree and you could tell I was a top right away. Subs also have this awareness. that’s why when a top comes into a room and there are subs there, even if they have not come out about it, they will act much differently than they do with the vanilla men in the room.

Nikki: Yes sir, I have noticed this personally.

Reader: How much is seen in your day to day life on how things work in terms of the lifestyle?

Sir John: Well, my perception of this is based on my own experience. The D&s dynamic is quite strong in my life, as you know. It’s my opinion a true relationship must have a Dom sub component. But lets be clear, a Dom does not abuse. Just because he is alpha does not mean the sub has no rights. Of course she does and a Dom will revere his subs much more than a vanilla man would his girlfriend, wife, etc…But as you know, subs and dare I say, women in general, need boundaries. And when those are crossed, they must have someone they respect to be accountable to. I believe this is the best foundation for a relationship. When a sub has misbehaved she is punished then forgiven. No holding grudges or storming out like a lot of vanilla men do. After the punishment the Dom reassures his sub that she is loved and forgiven. With Bree and Nikki, even if I need to be severe, they know I love them and the punishment is for their own good. They each have different rules pertaining to their lack of discipline in areas and then they both must be respectful and obedient. But I am sure they both know they are loved and treasured.

Nikki: Yes sir, we do.

Reader: If you had children, how do you think they might change the Dom/sub interaction in your home?

Sir John: Well, privacy is essential for obvious reasons. However, if I had children, I think I would bring them up being aware of the lifestyle so if I had to spank my wife and they were there, they would see it as a caring thing and not be embarrassed by it.

Reader: I read that you had a long relationship with Bree training her prior to having an intimate relationship. Why was that? Did you know it would eventually lead to marriage?

Sir John: Well at first no, but the more I got to know her, the more I realized just how special she was and is. I think a D&s relationship needs time to develop. The good thing about it is the sub knows right up front what is expected of her and she either complies or says thats not my thing-so no time is wasted. All of my past relationships always had the rules set forth before the first date. D&s is a very honest communication which is why it works so well. Bree is an amazing woman, as you know, and took to her training very well. She is a model sub…most of the time. lol!

Nikki: lol

Reader: Do you have any recommendations for subs looking for a Dom, and what should they look for?

Sir John: Well, I do mentor some would-be subs online, and this is a frequent question. First off, and this is vital, a real Dom will never bring up sex…a real Dom will not be a jerk and try to boss a woman. He will actually be caring and understanding, but quite firm in how things will go. Even in a chat or email, a woman can feel if it’s a weekend Dom or the real deal. It’s not easy. A Dom must be a lot of things, and above all, balanced.

Reader: How have things changed since adding Nikki to your family?

Sir John: Well, I love Nikki. She is smart and cute and quite spankable. lol She and Bree love each other and I have come to love her as well. She can be a brat at times as she has not had the training Bree has, but she is learning.

Nikki: Hmph!

Reader: How do you determine the amount, or type of implement, you use?

Sir John: Well it really depends on the offense as you know only too well. And this brings up a good point for a would-be Dom. All spankings are not created equal. lol  So lets say Bree has been a brat. A good hard hand, bare bottom (BB) spanking is sufficient. But lets say she was speeding and got a ticket. Then the spanking should reflect the offense as should the implements. For a speeding ticket, she would receive a hand, brush, paddle spanking followed by 12 of the best.

Nikki: 12 of the best sir?

Sir John: Yes, a caning.

Reader: Is there a general guideline that is followed by all or most Doms?

Sir John: Well, in a way. Lets take two scenarios. Lets take a first encounter. A Dom must be very aware of the subs behavior. First, she is going to be terrified-after all this is a strange man who is not only going to bare her bottom, but punish it. She is trusting he knows what he is doing and will not abuse her. So a Dom needs to be firm but caring. Now this can go two ways, it can be a real punishment session or a role play. Each is different. I can elaborate if you want.

Nikki: Yes sir, please do.

Sir John: Well, and this will be a controversial opinion I am sure, but a real punishment session should have no safe words. After all, if you were sentenced to a spanking would you have the power to stop it when it got too painful? No, and if a sub wants a real punishment then it should be done that way. Now a Dom must be unyielding here. If she is starting to mark, he must still carry out the punishment as he stated he would. She can not top from the bottom and use tears, etc. to stop it. If it is role play, the safe words are acceptable as it is fantasy and the sub really has done nothing to deserve real punishment. So you see the difference?

Nikki: Yes sir, for clarity though….You are saying that in a Dom/sub relationship there are no safe words because it is consensual and she has given her Dom that right to punish her? But if playing-even with her Dom, she can use a safe word because it is not an actual punishment.

Sir John: Yes, in a relationship that is true, but in play yes, she can have a safe word. Now let me make a point; most spanking sites will tell a would-be sub who is about to have a first session, to have a safe word. I get that and there is nothing wrong with it. But I have had many subs in a session tell me they came to me because they need a real punishment-no safe words, etc….a sub that is looking for real atonement, will not feel she has been truly punished with a safe word. But I do understand the safety issue here as well.

Nikki: Thank you. That was going to be my next question-whether you feel it is appropriate for a woman meeting a Dom she has met online-for the first time, to have a safe word.

Sir John: I Have my own take on this but I would never turn down a session because a woman wanted a safe word. You see, its much different to role play you are drinking too much, and to actually have been drinking too much, and be punished for real.

Note: This is from me, Breanna….while we never have used safe words, John does listen carefully to me during a session. If something comes up that warrants me needing him to stop, I will tell him I am serious and we take a break to discuss whatever is causing me distress…and I don’t mean my bb! BECAUSE OF  PAST ISSUE OF ABUSE, HE IS VERY CAREFUL NOT TO TAKE ME TO THE PLACE OF PANIC, AND I TRUST HIM TO BE AWARE OF EVERY SOUND, BREATH, AND MOVEMENT THAT WOULD INDICATE I WAS HAVING A PROBLEM BEYOND THE OW FACTOR.

Reader: Have you studied from a medical point of view how much discipline is safe to administer?

Sir John: You learn as you go. The first time I administered a bb spanking, I was amazed at how red her bottom got and also a little bruised. I was pretty young, about 17, and I was freaked out she might show her parents. But all she did was tell her girlfriend who started really paying attention to me. lol So a Dom must be aware of what is happening to the skin. Some women mark quickly, some not much. Where one woman a 100 hand spank spanking can bruise, another it may take 500. So you just have to be aware.

Nikki: So is that why you and other Doms prefer bb? Or is is simply because bb hurts more sir?

Sir John: Well, there are a few answers here but first, just in case any would-be Doms are reading this….get your hand in shape. A subs main fantasy is over the knee (OTK) bb. And for a hand spanking to really feel like a punishment you should be able to do at least  200 sounds spanks with your hand. So practice men! lol Ok, now to your question. First we are men, so a woman’s bb is really exciting. In the OTK position. Even moreso and flaming red even more…so it is that, as well as the feel of the skin getting hot, that is really exciting. And lets be honest, Doms are sadistic-some more than others. So having a bb woman squirming under your hand as her bottom changes from white to pink to red is very satisfying. From a practical point of view, you can see the effects the punishment is having and gauge for safety reasons. And yes, also because it does hurt more.

Reader: Have you allowed yourself to be punished once, to know how it feels?

Sir John: Yes, I must admit I have. But not with any implements.

Nikki: —Mouth gaping— um, ok last question… lol

Reader: How do you bring yourself to discipline Nikki? She seems like such a sweet girl, I would think you would find it difficult to be stern with her…(this may or may not have been submitted by yours truly 😉 )

Sir John: lol! Well, although your question was meant to be humorous, it brings up a good point. How does a Dom bring himself to discipline severely the one or ones he loves? This is a dilemma all Doms face when they fall for someone or care deeply for a sub. Nikki is a sweet girl, but she needs direction. Though it pains me at times to see her her bb marked by my hand or paddle, I know it’s for her own good and will help her grow into a well behaved young lady. Its not always easy for a Dom to be severe, but sometimes its necessary.

Sir John: Now before we conclude, let me say this. D&s is a wonderful lifestyle and if you are lucky enough to find the right partner, there is nothing better. For would-be Doms, be caring and loving but strict when you need to be. Do not let tears etc. deter you if your sub needs discipline, and never back out after you have stated she is to be punished. If you do it will just confuse her. Be consistent, fair, and never punish in anger or yell. A Dom is always calm and in control. Remember, you are training her for her own good. She needs boundaries as I stated before, but be balanced in how you handle her. It is a great responsibility. For would-be subs it’s important you are respectful. Never curse or yell and mind your Dom. You will all try to weasel out of a punishment-we know this-it’s part of your nature. But remember, even if your Dom is severe, its because he cares. He is not there to abuse you, but to help you be the best you can be. So mind him and try to behave. Of course no one is perfect, and if a Dom had a perfect sub, who would he spank, right? lol Any way, good luck to all of you. If you can be half as happy as Bree and I am, you will be blessed indeed.

Nikki: Thank you sir for taking time to answer our readers questions. We appreciate it and your words of wisdom.

Sir John: My pleasure. We will take care of your book later today. Love you.

Nikki: Yes sir. I love you too.

     ***Disclaimer: The opinions stated in this interview are not necessarily the opinions of the blog owner or her sister.***

 

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Age-Play: Why, When, How?

I’ve been getting alot of questions lately about age-play: especially since many of my books incorporate this element in one way or another.  I’ll try to answer them, ok?  Please feel free to input any question or comments–
TO BE CLEAR: 
AGE-PLAY is NOT in anyway, shape or form a type of pedophilia- nor does it imply that one, or both, partners have any interest in minors
What age-play is:
Age-play (AP)is a form of D&S in which one partner adopts the characteristics of an infant to a school-aged child (0-17) while the other assumes the role of authority (parent, guardian, teacher, extended family member, etc).  AP is simply a type of role-play that presents itself naturally in the dynamics of a Dom/Sub relationship, and allows the sub to be taken to a time and place of complete vulnerability. It is, in my opinion, the most nurturing and trusting scenarios that can occur.  If the scene is conducted properly, it allows for extensive healing, confidence building and renewal of trust since the sub/adult child becomes completely dependent on his/her partner to meet all his/her needs.
What age-play is not:
It is not a license to abuse or neglect. Nor is AP about living out a BDSM fantasy of total control.
AP is probably the most unselfish lifestyle that a DS couple/family can practice.  To be therapeutic, it requires 100% of what the Dom gives and, likewise, what the sub relinquishes- to be freely and conscientiously offered
AP demands careful thought and decision making from the Dom to guide and provide for the adult child as though they were once again, a child. The adult ‘child’ trusts his/her Dom with the most vulnerable and delicate part of their heart, mind, spirit and body. The responsibility that falls to the ‘Adult’ is extensive and he/she must be committed to provide for the needs as required by the agreed upon age-group.This means setting proper examples, enforcing reasonable rules, providing appropriate boundaries, and carefully observing for any changes or hints that might trigger a negative response.  Yeah- adult child-rearing is alot of work for the Dom…. but the rewards, for both side, are immeasurable.
I could go into all types of scenes, examples, etc.- but right now I just wanted to share what you will see in my books about AP and why.  To me, AP is such an intimate part of my relationship with John and allows me to release myself completely to his care.  It is very difficult, to be honest, and there are Pros and Cons.  I have to release all my independence, thoughts, ideas, responsibilities and adult privileges to him and allow him complete control in directing me towards what he believes is best for me.
I don’t always like it. The loss of freedom, decision making and adult ‘rights’ is not something I enjoy.  And I don’t always submit to it graciously although I know that doing so will relieve me from worrying about anything except what Daddy John has me do.
The benefits:
I think it’s easier to ‘show,’ not just ‘tell’…..  After a hard night at work (I’m a hospice nurse), I come home stressed and very tired.  I walk in and Daddy has the bubble bath ready for me with toys and pretty scented soap.  Almost immediately, I can let go of being a grown-up and, with that, the tension and anxiety that follows me in from my adult life.  He undresses me, helps me into the tub, washes my hair and plays with me (I’m not allowed to splash him though).
This natural and unpretentious act of him caring for me in the simplest of ways allows me to shed my ‘male’ and enter into my ‘female’.  He’s very aware regarding my tension level and conducts himself accordingly.  If I’m upset, I’m cuddled, he feeds me and brushes out my hair, then sings me to sleep as he holds me. If I’m cranky and not responding well, then I’m fed and put to bed for a long talk later.  If I’m defiant or refuse to let him take care of me, well…. that usually does not go well and I have a sore bottom with corner time, and then fed and put to bed.  Every day is different- yet it is always consistent.
The AP element exists in all healthy DD/DS relationships to a certain degree- whether you call your Dom ‘daddy’, ‘sir’, ‘master’, or King of the Universe (John’s personal favorite).  It involves letting go of control and inhibitions to the base-nature of our humanity. There is nothing more precious to a loving parent than their child- and nothing more wonderful and strong to a child than a loving parent. AP allows us to live in that precious, unassuming place- even for a little while.

 

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