Gosh am I glad this week is over. It has been one emotional roller coaster. Can you say PMS? I managed to get myself lectured and punished and, well, without going into details, it was a rough week. I have been feeling maybe insecure? I was given and order by John to not do something and if I do it there will be dire repercussions. So obviously I am tempted to do exactly what I am forbidden to do cause you know, tell me I can’t do something and suddenly, that is exactly what I want to do. So been struggling with that. Sorry so vague but have to protect the innocent here… But one day due to my previous behavior daddy decided that he had to deal with me as SIR rather than Daddy for the day(or two) and it was rough. I like him a lot more when he is daddy. Heck I love him when he is daddy but when he is sir he is just downright scary and mean. But I do understand where he is coming from-but that doesn’t mean I have to like it right?
Plus, I have been doing my ICU rotation and it is tough and scary and sad and challenging, and… well you get the picture. I am not planning to become an ICU nurse. All though looking back – I can do that because my rotation is over – it wasn’t as bad as I thought it would be and I learned a lot. And thank GOD for Bree. She is so smart and so helpful. It’s great having a sister who is already an nurse when you are going through school. Now if I could just figure out how to get her to do my homework…
So, back to how glad I am the week is over for me. I’m off tomorrow, all though I have a lot of work to do. But not needing to get up at 0400 is a wonderful thing. I fully intend to sleep in. Then do some homework. Then lounge around the house. Maybe I will get lucky and someone will make me dinner or something. That would be nice.
So there is my update. I really hope next week is better. I don’t think I can take another emotional week like this past one.