My First Punishment

First, I am supposed to say how it was watching Bree get punished last night. Let me just say, it was not fun.  Poor Bree really got it. Daddy was not happy with her because of her drinking and defiance. Her poor butt looked like hamburger.  I hope I never get punished like that. She got the cane, switched, strap, hand, and paddle. While I felt really sorry for her cause I love her (even though she is bossy), I was also really worried about my turn. And Bree had to go to work last night so she wasn’t even around to support me.

My punishment was no where near as severe as Bree’s but daddy lectured me and I got 100 spanks with his hand for being disrespectful and arguing, then 25 with an evil black paddle that has holes in it and hurts like a SOB and 15 with the strap because I lied and then 25 with my hair brush.  Daddy made me stand in the corner for one hour and I could not rub at all the entire time. Then he held me and told me I was forgiven. That was the only nice part.  Then I got sent to bed early.

I really need to learn to be respectful and not argue. Daddy says I need a “Sir” day. And every time I forget to answer properly I will get 35 spanks. I hope we don’t do this anytime soon because it still hurts to sit down.

I’m going to try really hard to have no additions to my book this week. It’s just not worth it.

Never Again! My bottom can’t take it–

Hey Y’all.  Not a happy little girl right now.  I’m at work, sitting very, very uncomfortably.  Daddy was extra harsh tonight- probably because Nikki was being forced to watch.  I felt so bad for her, too- especially since I had to leave for work before she received her discipline.  So, if I might give a word of advice- having a couple of glasses of wine and insisting on being defiant is not worth it.  Not this time.  I received a very long hand spanking with the dreaded lecture about how disappointed he is with me, how I need to provide a better example for my sister and that my health depends on being obedient (I’m diabetic).  As though his hand doesn’t hurt enough, but the OTK portion was followed by the hairbrush (for swearing during the spanking).  I was so embarrassed- kicking around and yelling like a two year old!  Then he made it more humiliating for me.  I had to bend across the bed for 25 of the strap and six of the cane.  Like my butt wasn’t already on fire enough- he bundled the three switches! This is for putting your health at risk, young lady!   I lost count of those ‘cuz I was too busy crying and trying to escape.  My poor bottom looks like it sat on a hot mesh grill.  Daddy made me stand in the corner, crying, with no rubbing for 15 minutes before he called me over to cuddle and hold me. My poor sister just cried.  I’m sorry she had to see that and I wish I did not have to drive or move around tonight.  At least I know that Daddy will take care of me when I come in tomorrow morning and everything will be forgiven.

I’m On My Way Home- Young Lady!

Oh boy- those were the last words I wanted to hear today!  All the things that are waiting to be applied to my bare bottom are about to happen.  What a glorious week it’s been- with him out of town for work and leaving Nikki and me alone.  He usually waits until Sunday nights to ‘deliver his message’ and, thankfully, he was gone this Sunday!  But  either this evening or tomorrow morning, I will be receiving my ‘comeuppance’ for my disobedient and disrespectful behavior.  Help?
POOR NIKKI! Other than a brief hand spanking, she hasn’t had to face Daddy’s wrath.  Her book is just filled with silly little things that she could have avoided.  But no- she has to have the last word!  To make it worse, John informed me that she will be witnessing MY discipline and then will give her ‘time’ to think about it before she is called to stand before him.  I don’t know who is more frightened- her or me.
Does anyone have room for me to move in before he gets home?
Luv You All,
Bree

Age-Play: Why, When, How?

I’ve been getting alot of questions lately about age-play: especially since many of my books incorporate this element in one way or another.  I’ll try to answer them, ok?  Please feel free to input any question or comments–
TO BE CLEAR: 
AGE-PLAY is NOT in anyway, shape or form a type of pedophilia- nor does it imply that one, or both, partners have any interest in minors
What age-play is:
Age-play (AP)is a form of D&S in which one partner adopts the characteristics of an infant to a school-aged child (0-17) while the other assumes the role of authority (parent, guardian, teacher, extended family member, etc).  AP is simply a type of role-play that presents itself naturally in the dynamics of a Dom/Sub relationship, and allows the sub to be taken to a time and place of complete vulnerability. It is, in my opinion, the most nurturing and trusting scenarios that can occur.  If the scene is conducted properly, it allows for extensive healing, confidence building and renewal of trust since the sub/adult child becomes completely dependent on his/her partner to meet all his/her needs.
What age-play is not:
It is not a license to abuse or neglect. Nor is AP about living out a BDSM fantasy of total control.
AP is probably the most unselfish lifestyle that a DS couple/family can practice.  To be therapeutic, it requires 100% of what the Dom gives and, likewise, what the sub relinquishes- to be freely and conscientiously offered
AP demands careful thought and decision making from the Dom to guide and provide for the adult child as though they were once again, a child. The adult ‘child’ trusts his/her Dom with the most vulnerable and delicate part of their heart, mind, spirit and body. The responsibility that falls to the ‘Adult’ is extensive and he/she must be committed to provide for the needs as required by the agreed upon age-group.This means setting proper examples, enforcing reasonable rules, providing appropriate boundaries, and carefully observing for any changes or hints that might trigger a negative response.  Yeah- adult child-rearing is alot of work for the Dom…. but the rewards, for both side, are immeasurable.
I could go into all types of scenes, examples, etc.- but right now I just wanted to share what you will see in my books about AP and why.  To me, AP is such an intimate part of my relationship with John and allows me to release myself completely to his care.  It is very difficult, to be honest, and there are Pros and Cons.  I have to release all my independence, thoughts, ideas, responsibilities and adult privileges to him and allow him complete control in directing me towards what he believes is best for me.
I don’t always like it. The loss of freedom, decision making and adult ‘rights’ is not something I enjoy.  And I don’t always submit to it graciously although I know that doing so will relieve me from worrying about anything except what Daddy John has me do.
The benefits:
I think it’s easier to ‘show,’ not just ‘tell’…..  After a hard night at work (I’m a hospice nurse), I come home stressed and very tired.  I walk in and Daddy has the bubble bath ready for me with toys and pretty scented soap.  Almost immediately, I can let go of being a grown-up and, with that, the tension and anxiety that follows me in from my adult life.  He undresses me, helps me into the tub, washes my hair and plays with me (I’m not allowed to splash him though).
This natural and unpretentious act of him caring for me in the simplest of ways allows me to shed my ‘male’ and enter into my ‘female’.  He’s very aware regarding my tension level and conducts himself accordingly.  If I’m upset, I’m cuddled, he feeds me and brushes out my hair, then sings me to sleep as he holds me. If I’m cranky and not responding well, then I’m fed and put to bed for a long talk later.  If I’m defiant or refuse to let him take care of me, well…. that usually does not go well and I have a sore bottom with corner time, and then fed and put to bed.  Every day is different- yet it is always consistent.
The AP element exists in all healthy DD/DS relationships to a certain degree- whether you call your Dom ‘daddy’, ‘sir’, ‘master’, or King of the Universe (John’s personal favorite).  It involves letting go of control and inhibitions to the base-nature of our humanity. There is nothing more precious to a loving parent than their child- and nothing more wonderful and strong to a child than a loving parent. AP allows us to live in that precious, unassuming place- even for a little while.

 

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