Catching up!

Hello, My Friends!

It’s been a while since I’ve had the time to post and I apologize… work just keeps getting in the way of my having fun.  I’ll be getting a new laptop soon and be able to take it with me so I can keep in touch- even during the weeeeeee hours of my night shift.

I have a new book done!  I was calling it Perl of Great Price, Tx- but James has wisely convinced me to change the name (although I’m not sure yet since my brain has been so frazzeled lately).  It’s been fun writing it- very different than my others in the respect that it takes place in a part of history that forced me to research well (1947) and is relatively MILD for me (sex wise).  It’s pure romance and, as always, about self discovery.  I’ve been feeling very girly lately- sooooo I figured I would share the softer side of my nature with my incredible readers.

I wanted to thank all of you for your feedback and positive encouragement. As writers, we invest our hearts and take risks with our stories.  Personally, every one I write has a piece of my real life in it- to allow for greater truth and vulnerability for my characters and myself.  My fellow writers and personal friends (Renee Rose and Patty Devlin) will attest that it takes a lot to develop fun and interesting story lines and characters, and to find ways to meld truth and fantasy into one, cohesive piece.  Your support, loving reviews and private emails have made this whole experience one that I intend to continue for a very very long time.

It’s about you— what do you want to see?  What new world would you like to explore with me?  I also want to thank those of you who got their hackles raised with my ‘haters’.  These people don’t have to like our books… or even me as a writer.  Just think of it this way- they still buy them, right?  So there has to be something they are searching for that, hopefully, I might one day touch. This is my desire with everything I write- to touch something in the soul that allows for healing, happiness or hope. See? It’s good all the way around.

Please keep emailing, commenting and reviewing… I love all of you (having a Hallmark moment here)
Yours Forever-
Bree

Changes

Ok, I don’t know about the rest of you, but I tend to be a creature of habit.  As my family (and my poor editor) knows, I tend accept unpleasant changes only after kicking and screaming.  I do adjust…. sometimes after throwing a big tantrum. Why do I react so strongly?
I confess.  I have this teeny, weeny, itsy, bitsy issue…. My name is Breanna Hayse and I am a control freak.  Do I hear an ‘amen, sista’?
(No comments, Nikki!)
I know that I’m not as flexible as I should be when things don’t go my way or as I planned.  That includes my habit of trying to Top from the Bottom.  My beady, little brain has a very precise agenda regarding how I should be raised, disciplined, directed and treated as a sub.  My opinion, coupled with those momentary lapses of sanity, tends to erupt in verbal form and I dictate how, when and why John should ‘handle’ me.  Add to that yet another such moment of general insanity, when I challenge him in order to see if he got the hint.
Things never work out quite the way I want it, but I keep on trying.  Ahh, the definition of insanity at its best.
The question boils down to why? 
Why am I never satisfied with how things are- status quo? 
Why do I constantly seek new ways to stir up the pot? 
Why do I have this satiable need to exceed my limits when I under stress, duress or in a state of change?
It’s all about consistency…..

Consistency means security- it means caring- it means stability– it means that the time is taken to maintain a goal, even when there is a shaking in the focus. When my life is topsy turvy, or I am experiencing too many changes at once (even simple ones like when John picks up the wrong brand of toilet paper), I’ll find a way to shake things up to give 
John a chance to be consistent and stable.  If he ignores the hint… well…. kicking and screaming.
That usually gets his attention.
I’m not saying anyone should do things this way- not at all, in fact, unless you are into carrying an extra portion of chicken tenders. No, my hope is to help us recognize the reason we act certain ways at certain times.  Also, how we feel when we see the results.
Consistency- how we receive it and how we react to it, can make all the difference in the world.  it’s not just dealing with D&S; it’s about any relationship, job, chore or interaction we encounter. your challenge… explore your own consistency or the lack of it, in your lives.  How do they make you feel and how can you bring things to order?
Luvs and Kisses! Breanna

 

I gotta do what?

What does it mean when you have to do things you don’t want to do because your job is to do what your Dom tells you to do? I’m gonna tell you. It means crap, I signed up for this and now I gotta do what he tells me to do even though I don’t want to do it. Yea the life of a subbie. Here was the conversation I just had…
 
” Did you work out today?”
” Um, well, not actually TOOOODAY, but I will probably, maybe tomorrow.”
” OK well that’s 50.”

Huh? WTF? (this part was in my head-NOT out loud) You mean you were serious when you said I had to work out 3x a week or else?”
 

Why is it that when he said it originally (and I was feeling all fat- and to be honest, confident I could whip this bod into shape, I agreed to this nonsense?  Not that I really had an option). But here’s the thing. I trust him. He is doing this not because he is being mean but because he knows that I want to get into better shape and this is how I have to do it. And it is working. I have to answer to someone else and I know that if I don’t do what I am supposed to do, I will have to suffer the consequences of that decision.

If you are a sub, you give up a lot of control-yet you give up no control. See, it is a choice we make to obey. And if you trust your Dom, then even when it is uncomfortable to obey, you know it is OK because you know they don’t want to hurt you. That is why-listen up- it is really important to be very careful about who you entrust with this responsibility. A lot of subs just want to find a Dom and do not take it seriously enough. Be selective. Take care to listen to your inner self. If something doesn’t feel right, it isn’t. Trust your instincts, and know that you deserve to be happy and safe in your relationship. There are a lot of sad stories out there of women who have been hurt by trusting the wrong person. Some have been hurt really badly. Raped, beat up, and emotionally damaged. Don’t take a chance with your life. Be very selective and when the right person comes along, you will know it.

Oh and don’t forget to exercise 3x a week. 🙂

Nikki

Serendipity Ranch Is Here!

Serendipity Ranch is Here!  Ok Y’all- I had a blast with this one.  Subbies- be prepared…. should you choose to repeat any of the smart a** comments used by Serena on your Doms, you might be finding yourselves as bare bottomed and tenderized as this gal is.  So grab yourself a glass of icy cold goat milk and a plate of cookies, sit back and watch the fireworks fly!

Luvs to All- Breanna

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