Okay, I’m a dork…but Baby Bananas has totally won my heart! He’s still too young to ‘sing’ like a big bird, but he’s definitely trying!
For those of you who read the Generals’ Daughter Series, you might recall a certain song that Sam insists her daddy sings when she’s not feeling well, is hurt, or just feeling insecure. Dr. Quimby, being the world’s greatest dad, never denies giving his little girl the love and reassurance she needs- even if it means singing…
THE FISH SONG
Bananas just had his dinner (as you can see it still all over his little face) and hopped onto the computer for play time. This is the first time he actually ‘sang’ (I used the term loosely because he still growls like a dinosaur) to the song. You can also see he knew it was ending!
I love this baby so much. He’s also becoming more than a pet for me.
For those of you who don’t know, I’m a disabled veteran (PTSD/MST -Military Sexual Trauma). I won’t go into detail, but over the last few years, certain events and situations have made it increasingly difficult for me to avoid anxiety attacks and trigger responses- especially the deliberate actions by the haters to cause harm.
Sadly, instead of stopping after the Author Amy letter demanding I kill myself, they continue.
Despite their mockery, I have nothing to be ashamed of- nor does anyone else who suffers with this condition. I know it’s not my fault- and I refuse to be anyone’s victim. Medication, however, can only do so much, and I’ve come to depend on my real friends and family to help me through the more difficult days.
I also have two certified service dogs- Princess and Diamond- who are incredible in detecting either a panic attack or, since my illness with sepsis and kidney failure, petit mal seizures. The problem, though, is prevention.
Then I heard about this program called Parrots for Patriots.
I contacted the organization (they are located in the Pacific Northwest) and spoke to one of the volunteers. He suggested I try a cockatiel (which is in the parrot family, but snack-sized) as an emotional support animal, and recommended a hand-fed baby.
That’s when John went on his search. He happened upon this great guy nearby who breeds ‘tiels but didn’t have the time to hand-feed. Long story short- we went to pick up the 3-week old baby Bananas for me to hand-feed and I came home with FOUR babies- and a new job. Yeah, I actually get paid to hand raise baby cockyraptors!
Of course, I kept Bananas- and he’s amazing. The interaction is so different than with the dogs- mostly good (not thrilled with the poop part, but I’ve got rags). He even cuddles, literally, and loves to be scratched and petted. He comes to his name now and cracks me up with his antics.
P.S. Diamond’s afraid of him, lol.
So- between my art (noanxienty.art.blog), the puppies, raising baby cockyraptors, and Bananas- life’s gotten a little easier to handle. I’m still writing, although finding ‘words’ and keeping the train of thought is still difficult, but I plan to continue.
I still wish in my heart that some peace from the haters could happen, but- as John says- every time they turn a cold shoulder and refuse to make things right, another brick of karma hangs over their heads. That saddens me. I love people- and I even have love in my heart for those who’ve hurt me but seek sincere reconciliation. I just wonder if they realize how much happier their days would be if they stopped hating and learned to love.? Maybe they need a cockyraptor– or a Daddy. I wish I could give them whatever they are missing in their lives that make them so they have to hate and hurt. Life’s too short.
My book, The General’s Little Angel, is a true autobiography of my journey through abuse and betrayal, and what it looks like to be loved and nurtured. I hope that anyone who’s been hurt, betrayed, bullied, or struggles with self-harm will take some time to read it. I also pray that those who perform these acts on others with read it as well- and maybe get some help. As always, my arms are open to those haters who want to stop hating. It’s time to heal, don’t you think?
Welcome to the Silver Daggers Blog Tour!
The long awaited story about Lena’s rescue and introduction to her future husbands is here!
From the #1 US/International Best-Selling Author who launched the Age-Play Phenomenon- the debut of:
NORTHERN LIGHTS©: LENA
What does a little prima ballerina do when she falls in love with three gorgeous Daddy Doms while in the brand-new, isolated, age-play community of Northern Lights, Alaska?
Russian raised and trained to be prima for the Bolshoi, Lena wasn’t prepared for the new life waiting for her—a life filled with candy apples, a castle fit for a princess, and three handsome men to love on her and make all her dreams come true. Most of all, she’s allowed to discover, and enjoy, the little girl hidden inside of her heart.
After being kidnapped and held hostage by the Russia Mafia to convince her selfish, greedy father to sell them a synthesized drug, Lena’s brutal nightmare ends when four mysterious strangers rescue her. She’s taken to heal in a tiny Alaskan town called Northern lights where she discovers that the physical wounds she suffered were only the beginning of drastic, but amazing, changes to her life.
While in the hospital, she calls upon ‘Daddy’ to help her. Athabaskan-born Stefan Markford, one of the town’s founders, is smitten! He refused to leave her side for a moment and begins to share a way of life so unlike anything she encountered back in Moscow.
Stefan’s joined by his twin brother Sean, and older brother, Tony. The three strong Daddy Doms are devoted to making their little ballerina smile again, with music, dollhouses, and of course- candy apples. They also discover that their new Little girl has a defiant streak—one that requires old-fashioned discipline. As their love grows, the door opens for another new world for the young woman to explore—a world of wonder, sensation, and the freedom and joy of sexuality.
Be prepared to laugh, cry, rejoice, and get hot and bothered as you join Lena’s adventure in this first installment of Northern Lights.
Want more? Check out Billion Dollar Daddies: Jennie—and see Lena and Jennie come together five years later—and the endless trouble these two best friends seem to find!